Thank you for sharing your experience. I understand your wish to adopt and the heartache you have been through. In every life, there comes a time when you need to decide that while you have come on a path that has taken you this far, it is not the right one for you. That it is not meant to be. I am sure you have many gifts to offer that will enrich those around you. I wish you good luck in finding peace and fulfilment in your life, in new unexpected ways.